someday i'll float away.

i'm really excited for tonight, tomorrow, and saturday.
party saturday.


i'm a little frustrated, i guess people are a lot different than they seem. ya know. and now matter how much you think you know a person's motives, you can be absolutely wrong. and it sucks. but, people suck. whatever, you learn from it, and grow from it.

i wrote a couple new songs. one about the person talked about about, and one about graduating, and like our high school experience. i had to do that one for a school project.

tonight is third annual prepeprally sleepover night. which means. compliment game. get ready for the confrontation and tears, everyone. seriously. for those of our friends who havent endured it yet, or werent there to witness the origional game two years ago on my kitchen floor, it's an experience. the word "compliment" can be used loosely, since it's more like getting everything you feel about everyone in the room out there in the open. we only do it once a year. maybe once more if it's necessary. ya know.
i'm excited for the sleepover, and senior pep rally. hell yeah. oh and i'm singing the national anthem. terrified is an understatement.

havent heard from bio dad at all.

yeaaah. longest post in a while. maybe ill post some songs soon.

so yeah.

this sucks,
everthing else is good though.
wrote a song today.
guess i was inspired.
ha.

circles.

disappointed.
overreacting?
probably.


pretty much sucks.

just like a star across my sky

i'm really happy, things are pretty good.
i had one of the nicest nights last night. :)

so last night i saw some friends i hadn't seen in a while, it was nice.

i'm at alexis's, watching cougartown. haha.

tonight's christmas show rehearsal :)

18 in 8 days.
celbration for it in 9.
whoooot.

ghost whisperer!

i love this show.

i dont have much to write about.
gieleno, my father, wrote to me. directly.

i wrote back.


still numb.

good day

today i just hung out, basically. and i liked it :)

So, my father hasn't written yet, but it'll happen, i think. i hope. i think i hope.
i'm nervous. it doesnt really seem real. you go that long without that piece of you, ya know.

but yeah.
tonight i'm sleeping over alexis's, we just had musical theatre. it was fun. i'm so so so excited for Grease. wohoo. school tomorrow. NYC wednesday AND saturday!!! wohooooooooo


yeahh. so. also, in recent days i've noticed some things. all i have to say is what comes around goes around.
having said that, im not really a vindictive person. but seriously, some people deserve a little karma, ya know.

haha. totally contradicted myself, but if you know me, i think you know what i mean, ya know.

so, college stuff is freaking me out lately. i wanna go somewhere. ugh, ya knoooow.

alright

so, probably the most important thing that's ever happened to me, happened yesterday.
some people don't know, but i grew up without a dad. i dont really talk about it, ya know. i joke about, not so much recently. but that's how i deal. i'm kind of numb to it, it sucks. it has my whole life. i've never known him, and i didn't think i ever would. i wrote a letter in sixth grade, and i never got one back. it's always been hard on me i guess, but i was so used to it too. i don't know.i wrote a facebook message over the summer, when i found him with no response.

anyways. yesterday i found out he emailed my mom. he want's to talk to me. it's been eighteen years, ya know. i want to talk to him. it'll be interesting i guess. i'm scared.