alright

so, probably the most important thing that's ever happened to me, happened yesterday.
some people don't know, but i grew up without a dad. i dont really talk about it, ya know. i joke about, not so much recently. but that's how i deal. i'm kind of numb to it, it sucks. it has my whole life. i've never known him, and i didn't think i ever would. i wrote a letter in sixth grade, and i never got one back. it's always been hard on me i guess, but i was so used to it too. i don't know.i wrote a facebook message over the summer, when i found him with no response.

anyways. yesterday i found out he emailed my mom. he want's to talk to me. it's been eighteen years, ya know. i want to talk to him. it'll be interesting i guess. i'm scared.