it's been a while

i'm pissed i just was writing this then the computer freaked out and i lost it.
So. I have not posted in a while. This is due to the fact that the phone bill wasn't paid so we don't currently have internet. haha, cool. But it's okay, i'm at alexis's and i'm taking full advantage of her mom's new laptop(way to go mommabarb, it's sick).
Anyway. Boy Story Update: over! it's cool. I'm learning i don't need anyone in my life that doesn't need me. And, honestly, i think i'm better off. I need someone up to my speed. Having said that, i don't actually need anyone. Not now atleast. I mean, some people might say i depend too much on other people. Well, i suppose i don't really need that person in my life either.
This blog is starting to sound like a lot of nothing. Babble, but whatever.
Two people this week have basically said i'm going no where with what i want to do. The teacher i talked about in the last post has kind of pushed my buttons a little. Whatever though. The worst thing was what was said by someone else. Someone said that i wasn't going to make it where i want to be because i don't have the motivation and i depend on other people too much. Honestly. Well. Maybe i won't make it there this year. But if i have to go to hcc and make money in those two years while i'm home going to community college, i will. I'm going to do it. I dont know if i'll go to school after hcc, or if i'll ever get into another school, but i will go to college after high school, and some point after that i will be in new york. so. you can quote me. i'm going to do it.
OH. Emily and i are friends again. Good. We stopped talking for a really stupid little girl reasons. And we fixed it. good good good.

well, i didn't really catch it all up. but. I'm tired. and at a sleep over.
And, by the way. The vmas- i'm not a fan of kanye. and lady gaga is my homegirl. yup.